it's been 2 weeks of school
TWO WEEKS
HOW???
so much has happened, some good, some bad, and some, I just don't know whether it's good or bad.
school has been great, cept for the fact that i've been falling asleep in almost every lecture and even some tutorials, and i can't keep up with what the homework is and flunking that stupid grammar test. feeling pretty low at the mo cause like well that top in english thing in kranji obviously isn't working out here because i got a freaking 2/8 shit you pearson lol.
on the bright side, my auditions for stage 52 went through!
*insert applause*
tried to troll my classmates like omg i didn't get in but obviously no one gave a fuck so ahahaha i'm such a failure sigh but it's okay i'll live. excited to get into theatre, since i've never actually acted in shizz before, and like, maybe they'll do a musical or sth and i'll actually get to sing yay. also, i sang bruno mars's it will rain for the auditions THE KGT MEMORIES omfg im shuddering to think of that failure ;; but i think it must've impressed them somehow so im not complaining.
speaking about singing, i've been talking to a girl in my class, pingxuan, a lot. she sings and she likes ariana grande just like me YAY. she has this beautifully clear voice i am so freaking jealous of and she says she wants my shitty airy off pitch voice because it sounds "mature" dude wat juz nu.
also kinda happy cause i'm finally getting to know the girls in my class more, like cynthia and angela and iffah THANK GOD FOR PROJECTS and yeah i'm finally no longer totally sticking to the guys and gwen bwahaha
somehow feel like my bestf has dumped me for his new friend and i'm not even sure how i feel about that. sure, it's great that he's moved on but i'm somehow slightly jealous inside. probably just my fked up self esteem, like i guess i wasn't that great after all since you managed to find someone else but i'm the one who encouraged you to find someone else. lol i'm such a fucking idiot. and he still acts like we're still the same but we're not the same anymore i have my zac and you have your celine but i somehow wish we're back to september and those great afternoons before night study where we just chilled and watched the lcs and didn't give a fuck about anything.
havent had much motivation for anything lately, might actually quit cosplay even. no motivation to costest nor any money to buy coses to costest MY CAITLYN CLOTH IS STILL ROTTING IN MY ROOM idk man sigh and I'm feeling too lazy to even think about going to events. but I still get the feels to cos but it's not as strong as when i first started off back in late 2012
yeah so on that depressing note i guess i'm done, i'll be more cheerful next post heh
