i am so afraid what's going on with my mind.
this morning i woke up at 730 to take a shit but my mom was in the shower so i went back to my room, sat down on the floor and waited. next i knew, i got up from the floor with my phone alarm blaring and it was 10. i just totally blacked out im so afraid even with my narcolepsy i at least know when i'm gna knock out but this is a whole new thing it comes without warning im so scared.
the thing is after that i went to take a shower and when i went back to my room i heard a sound and thought it was a beetle but when i went towards my window i saw a huge wasp (a yellowjacket i think) with an orange stripe crawling along my window and i was like meh it's probably outside BUT IT WASN'T bc it crawled across to the next window and disappeared behind the curtain i just freaked out and i ran out of my room. then i went back and and lifted the curtain with my grandma's backscratcher but it wasn't there anymore and i'm starting if i imagined the whole thing am i hallucinating from the lack of sleep from the past few months i don't know anymore and now i'm sitting in my dark room with frank sinatra blasting through my earpiece and every time i hear a rustle i jump, waiting for a wasp to fly out at me fuck i want to fumigate my room or something
