confessions

so i did a 1 like = 1 confession thing on facebook and i got 24 likes. so here i go, just posting it up here because why not.

1. i'm actually pretty insecure about my looks
2. i think my nose is a little too big, and i want it to be 10% smaller
3. REALLY LOVE MY HAIR NOW THO i think it looks really good, just needs to be a little wavier
4. my mom didn't actually allow me to dye my hair, but i did it anyway alone in the bathroom at 10:30pm and she only noticed 2 days later rofl
5. I need a new wardrobe i have too many clothes but i cant bear to throw some out thus im in constant danger of a fabric avalanche when i open my wardrobe
6. im supposed to be doing my wricom assignment right now but im procrastinating someone slap me please
7. i gave my first kiss to a senior (my first boyfriend) at the tender age of 13 wahaha
8. i spend way too much money on food and i can never manage to save up enough to buy anything I like, eg cosplays
9. I kinda miss cosplaying at events but i'm just too lazy to travel and i don't have money for new coses and im getting sick of recosing the same old things
10. i have this really weird dream to suddenly be good at something that even I myself don't know i could be good at sth like suddenly seize a violin from a busker on the street and perform chopin's nocturne heheheh
11. i hate travelling to school and squeezing into the crowded trains and buses and the thought of doing it for 3 more years is very nauseating
12. actually i'm really insecure overall, like people say im pretty and all that sometimes i think i am but other times i look in the mirror and see this eeeugh and im like just no
13. i have to put on makeup all the time when i go out now to conceal my lack of brows and my tiny eyes and horrible panda circles
14. i miss my sec sch life somehow i feel that my time in np is just for an aem course, then ill be back in kranji again in uniform and shizz
15. im rapidly running out of clothes to wear for school but i don't want to look cui :< what is this fashion
16. this cut on my lip is very annoying and it doesnt seem to be getting better :/ hurts when i open my mouth so i have only been eating small soft foods lately so i dont need to open my mouth so wide
17. i sometimes forget to post photos on insta and after a day or two passes i spam insta with 4 or 5 photos in a day to make up for it
18. i miss singing in a choir thank god vc is starting again
19. im a bad liar but i lie a lot
20. sometimes if i don't have to go out i dont wash my hair for days on end,
21. i need to take a shower before i sleep tho. no shower = no sleep
22. i wish i had slimmer thighs the fats bulging out look hideous to me even if everyone else says i look fine
23. i didn't cry much when my grandfather died when i was in p5, in fact i think i shed a hundred times more tears about fictional characters over real people in my life
24. sometimes i really want to quit league, no matter how much i play, i can't improve, in fact i think ive been stuck at the same skill level for the past 7 months or so, and it's really demoralising, esp when i get my never ending losing streaks.

yeah i guess that's all i hope this helped yall to understand me better if you bothered to read through this haha