exhaustion

can't take it anymore

i ran
it was tiring
but less so when you're around me
faking, faking
as you suck out the happiness in me
straining to keep a smile on for you
i'm sure you don't mean it, see,
but i need to breathe, free.

so i ran
even as i felt your eyes burn holes in my back
tension buzzing like bees
but what difference did it make, for fuck's sake
i'm already a giant swiss cheese
riddled with guilt
get my foundations rebuilt
need a break
or i'll break