wildcard

last night i actually managed to get myself about halfway drunk it felt amazing
and it was with nick and melvin and megan and ben and jeremy and sulaiman and we were crazy as usual and it was fun even when meg and ben and sulaiman left and it was just the four of us and jeremy was gone af and nick was even worse off, leaving the slightly sober melvin and slightly wobbly me to take care of them. we moved to a swan!!! yes a swan thing it was a circle and it was comfortable bc i dragged cushioning from a deck chair onto it and we all just lay there and started giggling at each other then nick tried to kiss everyone even random strangers it was hilarious and haiqal and christine and francesca and gabriella (gab?) came and talked and we chilled and it was fun and bubbly and everything felt right even with your fingers in my hair and your head on my shoulder and your jacket on me and when you held me and shushed me when i started sleep talking until dawn broke but how will that turn out now i wonder, now that we're both sober?